The Boyfriend Question

There's only one question I get more then "can you show me your _____?" And that is, "do you have a boyfriend?"  I approached this question a lot differently when I started camming then I do now, but then again I think I've changed a lot since then.  

When I first started I always said no, I wanted to appear more available.  I thought if I were single and a guy thought he had a chance with me I'd make more money.  In retrospect it probably did but it also made a lot of them really pushy and they decided that I owed them something more then a show.  Like my number, phone calls and text messages, or an actual date.  I cammed steadily in my first year and when I moved into a housing situation that wasn't as allowing of it I backed off for quite a while.  When I came back to it my response to the boyfriend question was different.

The truth is I have a boyfriend. And yes, he knows.  And no, he's not upset about it, nor does he demand money from me for doing it.  He is my boyfriend, not an Internet pimp.  It was kind of his idea for me to start doing it!  It was one of those things that we joked about at first but it was enough for me to look into it.  When I asked him how he felt about me actually perusing it he was super supportive.  He knows I'm an overly sexual exhibitionist and saw it, more then anything, as a career opportunity. 

I'm lucky in my life that I've been really open about being a camgirl to the friends and family close to me and have received nothing but support.  I'm also really lucky that its not my actual job so I don't have to compromise my sense of self for money.  I do what I want, I have fun with it, and I'm honest about what you get when you're in my room.  If that means I make less because you don't like my relationship status then I didn't want what you had to offer me anyway.

Bored at work (my REAL job)

The thing about my life is that I live it week to week.  Literally.  I work 7 on then have the next 7 off.  Which is an amazing schedule if you can handle the fact that for your ON days you have no life besides sleeping and coming to work, and you barely have time for the sleep.  My work week also consists of overnight hours for the bulk of my 13 hour work day.  And I'm in healthcare so sometimes that means at midnight I'm getting pounded (and not in the fun way) and other nights its all metaphorical crickets chirping.  Tonight is crickets.  I always wish that I could log in from work and bullshit around on my camgirl sites even just to see what's up, but for obvious reasons they are blocked.  I even logged into my messenger accounts from my phone and no one is on.  I KNOW it's Friday night and people have lives but currently I'm trapped in front of a screen with nothing to do and all entertainment sites are blocked.  So I'm blogging out of boredom, which apparently seems to be the only thing to actually get me to blog (because I suck at having a website).

On my on weeks I always dream of how productive I'll be when I'm off, how many hours I'll spend on cam booty shaking, what I'll paint or read, even all the laundry I'll do... This is never the case.  I am a chronic list maker.  My to-do lists are like whoa. Shopping lists, favorites lists, movies to watch, books to read, ideas for the site, shit I need to put on eBay... 7 days of making lists followed by 7 days of ignoring them.  When I'm at work and all hopped up on my second can of 20oz redbull I dream of all my side projects that will continue to fund my spontaneous vacays and then book them on orbitz with money I'll make in the future.  And then instead of MFC or putting those 30 pairs lucky jeans on eBay I'll sleep in and go tanning and spend $47 at Starbucks and doing whatever else I can think of to avoid doing anything that would result in me crossing anything off of my week worth of lists.  And you would think working nights at a hospital would set me up to be good at working nights on the Internet! Really I only have myself to blame... But I'll keep pretending that its because I don't want my roommate to over hear me describe in detail "how badly I want you to fuck me right now" when she knows I'm in my room by myself 😳

Re-evaluate

I keep going to my site and going to my twitter and going to MFC... And it's so overwhelming and stressful!  I feel like when I decided to launch this site I wanted to give myself a platform for my camming and now I look at it and want to change my mind.  When it becomes something to do for someone else or for a business it stops being fun and starts getting neglected.  So I'm changing that. I don't know how or with what quite yet but I want to do this for me and for fun!  But I've found recently that I like the feeling of real people and user generated content then I do the shenanigans of fighting other girls for a top spot on a pay per view site.  Not that I think I'd give that up completely, but in my life it's not my main gig and I don't rely on it so its hard to put up with the bullshit that comes with it.  I enjoy the thrill more then the cash! (But the cash IS nice lol).  Back to reality.   Part time camgirl, Full time awesome.   

Back Up (like you knew it was down)

After my extensive spring break I came back home to all my life responsibilities and realized how little time I actually had. Instead of haphazardly throwing shit together I decided to put the site on hold and took it down for maintenance. During the lapse I've hardly been on social media at all.  But with summer right around the corner I figured its the time to pull it together and use the free time to my advantage! So hopefully you'll be seeing a lot more of me...I've missed the thrill of being a camgirl and playing out fantasies while you watch me! Mmmm! The thought of being on cam again already has me excited!

Spring break week #1 summary

I got to Florida one week ago today and its flown by! I feel like I've gotten nothing done in terms of spring break partying extravaganza or beaching it up and tanning but I have had a lot of fun. Friday night I drove up to Savannah, GA to participate in the second biggest St. Patrick's day celebration in the country. I've never been to anything like it! Everyone was really nice which I didn't expect from a crowd of people that large. Since I stayed until yesterday it turned into a three day celebration, and I wasn't the only one! Today I'm finally laying out by the pool and relaxing. Hopefully this bikini will help correct some of my unfortunate tan lines I gained over the weekend!

Website Launch

Something weird happened to me when I was trying to sleep last night and in my tossing and turning I decided to launch a website dedicated to myself!  So sleep deprived but excited, I went at getting a simple home page set up and activated it within an hour or so.  By the end of the night... morning?...I had links to my active sexiness on the internet and thought I should round it out with a blog.

So here I am Day 1 as a website owner and I know I probably won't touch it again until after spring break.  Or quite possibly ever, because I am terribly inconsistent.  

Did I mention I'm going on a nice THREE WEEK LONG spring break?  Plenty of time at the beach in a bikini working on my tan! 

Until next time!

<3 Kimber